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We all have lost someone to suicide, some even more then once.
This is a song for a friend lost to just that.
I had met him in the late fall/early winter months (years ago) and not too long after that he was gone.
He was a Husband, Father, Brother, Potter, and a beautiful human being.
He was the embodiment of someone who took the teachings of Jesus Christ, and tried to live as he had lived. Loving His Neighbor, and being a steward of the world and the creations we share with it.
He also viewed every small thing as being significant and having a purpose, even down to the small things he would sculpt with clay.
And boiling underneath was PTSD and other things that I had no idea were an issue.
So this song, although seemingly a bit vague is how I felt about my relationship with him for the few months that I knew Him.
Showing a side of himself that was genuine, but not the whole story.
I was never able to warm up to those pains and memories, and in hindsight what would I have done differently that may, or may not have made a difference.
It took me along time to "finish" this song, or to at least get it to this point because I didn't really want to think about it, didn't think it was strong enough of a song, didn't portray enough emotion, what have you. Perhaps I just didn't want to address it in any way.
So it is written like this is a recent thing, but it was years ago now.
Reach out if you are struggling, and fight for your friends if you know they are struggling.
Much Love
lyrics
My Friend, My Friend I have been so bitter
Only wish our paths had crossed before last winter
All your deep pain and memory I never warmed up to
Only wish I'd known what your mind was going through
I saw all the beauty your hands could create
In the very same hands that could easily betray
Wish I could have been there for you my brother
Even if only to lend a shoulder
It's so easy to rely on hindsight
All the things we would have changed that might
Have kept you around a bit longer
Which makes the next few steps all the harder
credits
released July 29, 2022
Spare room to record
At night, a warm bed
Roof over my head
Supportive Friends
Lovely Bride, who spurs and encourages
Nick Branfield for doing a bit of mixing magic (RIP Aurateur)
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